ExplodingFoghorn

Did i ever know? im starting to think i should make a new account. same with gaia. i dont really want to but.. i feel like it will help. I feel like i dont mean anything to anyone when im..like this? i know im nothing special, but i'd like to believe i was. i want to go back to the start of this year. i didnt feel so.. disconnected then.  this includes both online friends and real life ones. i am so confused.. maybe im not even sure what im talking about. i want to know who is or was special to me in life. because i used to always say no one was in my mind. i didnt want to feel.. stupid or if they didnt consider me a friend that i would.

Ok um. Mixed feelings pro: the fan traders hall was fun con: i couldnt get the fuck IN at the start due to my age pro: i met snowbunnyluv and got a badge for yelling out con: woke up early. went to city, come at 9. waited an hour in line. nothing happened. we were at the startish, then it moved. took us an hour to get to the ticket place. pro: saw alot of my friends con: Over rated? i think so. very big dissapointment. was as much crap there as i thought there would be. pro: freaking RIKU COSPLAYS con: freaking too shy to take a pic of them. then i worked up the courage and walked upto one. but they got hugged by someone randomly

just thought id put this up here the order of art im probably going to do it in saix for the shop (13 people depending on me kinda xP) saph (she already gave me her part of the trade D: i owe her bad) gargant re for his pic of Jax and Dex <3 then aicha x2 one for the kh script the other for her b day lu (present) gaiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah xP if i forgot you jsut mention it.