Did i ever know?
im starting to think i should make a new account. same with gaia.
i dont really want to but.. i feel like it will help.
I feel like i dont mean anything to anyone when im..like this?
i know im nothing special, but i'd like to believe i was. i want to go back to the start of this year. i didnt feel so.. disconnected then. this includes both online friends and real life ones. i am so confused.. maybe im not even sure what im talking about.

i want to know who is or was special to me in life. because i used to always say no one was in my mind. i didnt want to feel.. stupid or if they didnt consider me a friend that i would.. i didnt want to get myself hurt?

i need to start again and be different. but me. and i feel like me. who i really am. is boring. no one will talk to me. they.. i dont fucking know.

teenage angst sucks. i have mentally put my new years resolutions down in my ind right now. i hope next year they will work.

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hello everyone you may call me Ran
Im a sensitive and jealous person who thinks too much into the smallest things a person does to me.
I like to draw.
I enjoy sentimental things.
I over react.
I cant type or spell.
I am female.
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I am stuck inside my own mind.
I am confused.
Odds are i'd like to be your friend.